Hey! Have lot's of fun yesterday =) K-Box in diana's house, with felise, Lawls. Then laughoutloud on 163 bus, LOL! Have dinner there. ( Not really dinner, some snacks only ) Then slack around. When going to basement, Diana suddenly said, ' That time my birthday, I at there make cake.' Then I was like, ' Huh? Make cake?!' Then laugh like mad already. Hahas! Thrash-talking with Felise when diana is gone, Lol. Then went home.


I'm so sorry for what I've done to you, I didn't mean to, but, I still love my ex. That's the fact. You can't change me, right? I'm not being straightforward here but, I'm so sorry, all I can said, you wouldn't want to know what happened between us, seriously. You're not a bad girl, just that I'm a jerk, lier, backstabber. Find a guy that is more better than me, sweeter than me. A 100% good guy, perfect guy. I ain't perfect, neither I can be, I'm a jerk. I'm sorry. I'm proving to her that I still love her. I need her, miss her, know her. I only will let you down, but for now, it's over.

- I (L) her.
- I need her.
- I miss her.
- I desire her.

Hey, I know, I'm being a fool to love you, but, I can't give up that easily, being a fool, is something I wish to be. I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really (L) you, and I mean it. I didn't copy and paste, I typed every single word out. Can you give me one more chance? Everyone deserve a second chance. This is all I can said.
Back to post eh =)

Have lot's of fun yesterday, at diana's house with friends, lawls . Lot's of laughter down there, in fact fun. Lol. But the pain in me, is still like a never ending story.
Saw someone how intimidiate, jealous though, last long eh =) Very sweet, like a an already, be more mature larh, don't flirt here flirt there. Lawls.


Well, read your post, utterly jealous. Didn't get to talk to you for 2 hour. Lawls. Yeah, I'm not a perfect boyfriend, I know long ago. I'm not as sweet as him. I'm a utterly failure. I can do nothing, but cry at the back of the stage. All I can do is, act like nothing happened. My thinking is, I can't give up, I won't let you down, but it's over. Well, thanks anyway, as you do it unperfectly. But the pain in me, is still engulf-ing me. Maybe, love for you is a game, but for me, it' s my life you're talking. I don't like anyone. The one I love is you. You're ireplacable. As you said, it've never been the same. I don't like her, so no point keep asking me to love her etc. You're the one I love the most. I even give my life to you, letting you control me, I know this happiness isn't the one you want. So, what did you want from me? Please tell me, I wanna change to making myself more, better. And last but not least, I (L) YOU, seriously, Loving you, I've no regrets.


Well, FML. Living in this earth, the world, is far most wonderful thing I get. The only wish is, can get you back. I know I can't be better than that guy. I want you to know, I've tried. I have do anything to get you back. Prove to you. If I still can't get you back, I've nothing to say or prove anymore. This is all I can do. Prove to you.
Having 2.4km run today. It seriously kills me alright?

Hais.. Today, not that hyper as usual. Cried the whole night last night. Due to something. Nevermind, I've to carry on moving toward my goal, pain. But seriously, making her disappointed, isn't part of my plan. It seriously kills me too. But pain, is something I wanna archive in. I'm sorry.

I didn't angry at all. I felt damn sad after what I say to you. All my fault. Shouldn't let them read my message at all. I shouldn't had know. I'm just being too kind. I've done all this, all because, I (L) you, I miss everything about you, but, still you're gone. And all started with my damn attitude, and now, I've lose you. Not your fault at all. It's mine. For being too kind.. I shouldn't know.

There's nothing introducing friends to me, the more, the merrier right? All because of me being too kind, making her fall for me. I don't love her at all, alright? There's a diffrence between like and love. I can like a thousand girls, but I only love you. Kays?

I know I shouldn't show attitude, I just can't bear on my emotional. I'm sorry.

Labels: is my goal., Pain

Well, back to posting =)

Have lots of fun during our CIP, carwash =) Although it's very tiring, it's worth going there eh! ( RAY, GET WELL SOON UHH! ) Well, wash car at Dempsy Hill, which Mr Loh said that it's ulu. There's alot of ANGMOH there uhh ( TANWEI, SAD THAT YOU DIDN'T GO LUHH, BUT THERE'S ALWAYS TOMORROW =) ) Wash about 4 to 5 cars, I'm tired out. Lawls, Then become traffic police. Not really larh. LOL. After car wash,Our teachers treat us Ben & Jerry!! Damn nice derh lorh. Haha.

Then, Rush-ed to Crystal's brother's friends derh party. Quite fun uhh =) Then, play-ed badminton, my skill really become so damn rusty lo. LOL. Then, walk-ed home =)

Oh yeah, wanna know my result? Seriously suck alright?

English - Paper 2 - 54/80
Maths - paper 1 & 2 - 22/100 ( I did improved horh )
History - 7/25 - Drop damn lots.
D&T - 10/40
Science - 291/2/ 100 - I worked damn hard for it, yet.. T.T
Chinese - 401/2 / 60
Paper 1 - 43/ 70
Rest of it I forget already. Lawls.
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Girl, I want you to know, I still love you.
I can like thousands of girls, but I only love you.
I want you to know how much pain and happiness I've go through.
All I need is to gain your trust.
All I can do is, wait for your reply.

Labels: I still love you.

Back to post, yeah? Having Chinese exam yesterday, Paper 1 quite easy larhh, Paper 2 quite difficult eh. Choose question 4 for Paper 1, '' What's your most memorable punishment?'' I wrote something about my P4 life, in CVPS. When I was P4, I'm a rebel and immature kids, always didn't do homework, all I think is play, yeah, not focus in studies, that year, I think studies is just waste of time, nothing can beat playing,didn't know I was a 'target' for teacher. Until one day, I didn't do my homework, I eventually told her I do, didn't bring. She said, 'I have to call your parents, you keep on didn't bring your work, you force me to do that.' The moment I heard that, I'm scared. I'm also scared of my parents last time, then I cried it out,I even knee down to begged her, pathetic eh? I know. Then after that, she told me, ' I won't give a damn, you're in no place to begged me.' When the moment I heard that, I feel like dying, how I wish I could have a sleep which I can forget this world,this place, this teacher. Well, in the end I didn't hate her, I must thank her eh, because of her, I become more mature. Thanks! Let me continue, after that, I had memory of my parents, I can't left my parent alone, I have to live on, pain doesn't matter for me too. I had to live on. Then, I follow the teacher to staff room to call my parents. My parents eventually cane me, I don't mind, as long as I can serve them well, fine with me.Peace under an illusion is not true peace. It's only meaningful if the real world manages to accomplish it.That's what I write for my compo. Yeah, think of that, I really regret what I've done last time. Due to that, I keep skipping Math's class. Now, my math is damn bad.
Happy birthday to ALSON SING WEE PING!! Plus Mother's day ehh!! Giving a card to my mum, haha! But, lazy to waste money, money is precious ehh, better don't spend on unless item, haha! Went to Hougang Mall yesterday, being paiseh by ---. But, nevermind=) I don't mind at all. Haha! Then, Homed. After that, went to Tampines to celebrate Mother's day !! Didn't give her anything yesterday, but today giving her the card. Yeah, having fun with my cousin yesterday, joker uhh! I laugh till I cry, haha! This our conversation,

He said, '' Eh, you very handsome with your white spec, I jealous.
I said , '' NO LUH, You more handsome with your white spec, I more jealous eh.
He said, '' Jealous then, let's change specs.
I said, '' Okay then, Take off your spec then give me.
He said, '' Nah, you don't fit to wear my spec.
I said, '' You cheat my feeling, T.T
He said, '' Then, I love you lorh.
I laugh till cry uhh. I know I'm lame, You don't need to give comment=)


Lovedie-you uhh!
Back to post yeah.Having MYE yesterday, English paper, quite easy, doesn't mean I can get full marks uhh,Lawls. Rizan choose the topic 'Hero' ! As expected larhh. With his hero theory, doubt he will choose other topic, haha! Went to L.J.S for lunch with Tanwei, Jialian, Jiayi,Annie and Angela. Oh yeah, forgotten about Brandon,lol. Tanwei keep annoying Brandon, T.T. Blahblahbah, Going out soon. To be continue. Buai Buai.