Hey , Hello all . Having lots of problem nowadays , first , lencras 's problem , then friend's problem . Yeah , I know , I've change alot , as Mr Loh said . I'm trying to put a front in front of me , not to get bully easily , by doing that , you all know how much I suffer ? You all claim to know , but you're wrong .You all said , I flirt , playboy etc . Do you think I want to do that ? No , I'm just trying to know girl's thinking , to get to know more about girls , to comfort my stead , is that even wrong ? Yeah , I know I'm guailan , I guailan , I learn from you all . Don't tell me you all not guailan . You all know how much I suffer ? NO . You all said , I have stead already , still flirt other girl . You know , she seldom talk to me in school , only talk on phone . What is this counted as ? How am I able to know her well ? Keep on going out with you guys , and yeah , I know , you all didn't force her , she ownself following you all , for that , I can't blame you guys . All my fault , cause I have no guts to talk to her . Everytime , wrong timing , making me lose confidence , you all ask lencras , how hard I try to find her . She's always with her friend etc . That's why I doesn't want to disturb her . Yeah , I'm still innmature to have girlfriend , everyone have their first time right ? Last 2 time , it's a mess , That's why NOW i'm trying very hard . To make her happy . But in the end , Even worse . This makes me lose even more confidence , so what you all want me to do ? I guailan , also want to defend myself , if it's my wrong , fine , I'll keep quiet , But if it is not , I will defend myself . I really need an anger management ,

- Firstly , irritated very very easily .
- Secondly , angry over small things .
-Lastly , offend people very easily .
Hohoho , anyone miss me ? Hahas , Today sure is a tiring day for me :) After school , went straight to ancorvale sports Hall with LENCRAS CHAN HAO WEI for badminton , play till 2 , went to Mac for lunch , after that , went to the racket shop .Slack here slack there , Dhen after that , Someone came :> Then chat awhile , then off she go . LOL . I went up with Lencras , saw her , then carry on with our games . Lencras went off first , play-ed badminton with others ,then went to play basketball :) I want to send her home derh , but she on bus already :( LOL . There will be always next time :) Play-ed audi with her just now , LOL , Short & sweet post :) LOL .